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Too long - 2008-09-04-1538
Documentation and tpserver-cpp release - 2008-05-09-2303
tpserver-cpp and GSoC - 2008-04-27-1113
Graduated, again. (AKA, Charles Lee Begg, M.Sc.) - 2008-04-19-0017
tpserver-cpp issues - 2008-04-03-0033
Cumulative update from March 2007 to March 2008 - 2008-03-23-1209
Testing online blog writing - 2008-03-23-1143
Thousand Parsec is a SoC mentor project! - 2007-03-16-2358
Tpserver-cpp 0.4.1, and booksale - 2007-03-02-2320
New Year! - 2007-01-30-2122
Compression Competition: progress 1. - 2006-08-17-0146
Mitzi. - 2006-08-12-1555
Long time and a cool site. - 2006-08-09-2239
Opps, nope, we're last. - 2006-05-05-2214
About time! - 2006-05-04-0035
LCA2006: Day 6 and after - 2006-01-31-1153
LCA2006: Day 5 photos (and why they are late) - 2006-01-27-2357
LCA2006: Day 5 - 2006-01-27-2259
LCA2006: Day 4 - 2006-01-26-2136
LCA2006: Day 3 - 2006-01-25-2228
LCA2006: Day 2 - 2006-01-24-1951
LCA2006: Day 1 - 2006-01-23-2244
Off to Linux Conf AU 2006 - 2006-01-21-2355
Welcome to 2006 - 2006-01-04-0010
Darcsweb and Antialiasing pics. - 2005-12-29-2230
Merry Christmas All - 2005-12-27-1001
Dart gets Antialisasing. - 2005-12-17-0943
Hummm... Christmas - 2005-12-12-0215
Tpserver-cpp passes 10000 lines, and has full persistence - 2005-12-12-0202
Back on track: releases and micro-goals - 2005-11-28-1620
Oh well. Maybe next time - 2005-10-04-2255
It's been a busy month... - 2005-09-06-2347
Wow! Again, wow! - 2005-07-21-2329
It's right about now... - 2005-07-13-2135
Bad day - 2005-07-07-1858
Engagement! - 2005-06-28-1920
Big Steps - 2005-06-09-2305
Patches in high visibility places - 2005-06-04-1052
Private - 2005-05-29-1430
Capers 2005 - 2005-05-26-0025
'Scheming', settings and tpserver-cpp - 2005-05-26-0014
6 month - 2005-05-09-0104
Tpserver-cpp grows - 2005-05-08-2359
Charles Lee Begg, BSc(Hons) - 2005-04-16-2050
Busy week... - 2005-04-12-1754
Visiting William - 2005-04-07-1735
Photos of nephew William - 2005-03-17-2358
Uncle Lee!! - 2005-03-16-0906
This just in... - 2005-03-15-2230
Proposal update... - 2005-03-14-2248
Robots, libwww and dart. - 2005-03-08-0040
One million to two compression (NOT computer science) - 2005-02-28-0049
Dart 0.1.0 - 2005-02-22-2338
Dart 0.0.9 - 2005-02-21-0234
Ollie, you're a f'ing genius! - 2005-02-14-0225
Dart 0.0.8 - 2005-02-12-1708
Three Months - 2005-02-09-2323
Dart 0.0.7 - 2005-02-07-1651
Dart finally gets Cylinders - 2005-02-07-0340
Private - 2005-01-25-2241
libtpproto-cpp 0.0.3 - 2005-01-25-2233
Dart 0.0.6 - 2005-01-17-1249
Fire, Burning... - 2005-01-15-2305
Massive Dart speed up - 2005-01-11-2337
Blog changes, and two months... - 2005-01-09-1346
First post! - 2005-01-02-1234
I Don't Like Deja-vu... - 2004-12-20-2349
So what is the difference between friendship and relationship? - 2004-12-14-1508
Coding/programming update - 2004-12-08-1255
And one more thing... - 2004-12-07-1918
Something slightly less flippant - 2004-12-07-1201
I need to work on... - 2004-12-06-2346
Well, (nearly) three weeks is a long time - 2004-11-28-1752
"The overture is about to start..." - 2004-11-11-1000
Runtime network described classes and frame groups (libtpproto-cpp) - 2004-11-03-0100
Filtering someone's life - 2004-11-02-0125
Blog a little bit more now... - 2004-11-02-0108
Coincidence, or is a better understanding is needed? - 2004-10-28-0146
I think that is enough of that - 2004-10-14-0000
Pear shaped and character flaws - 2004-10-06-0000
And just like Arthur Dent... - 2004-09-21-0000
I hate it when I'm wrong - 2004-09-16-0000
Movement of the universe - 2004-09-15-0000
And then work calls - 2004-09-14-0000
Wow, now I know the universe is upside down - 2004-09-13-0000
What goes around... - 2004-08-26-0000
The Universe - 2004-08-17-0000
Seriously Unhappy - 2004-08-04-0000
I'm 22 - 2004-07-24-0000
And just as quickly, then it was gone - 2004-07-12-0000
And just as quickly, then it was gone - 2004-07-01-2230
Why does noone read this? - 2004-06-29-0000
Private - 2004-06-16-0000
Sooo... now what? - 2004-06-14-0000
Eeepp - 2004-06-11-0850
Missing - 2004-06-08-0000
Missing - 2004-05-31-0000
It's Been a Non Uneventful Week - 2004-05-20-2354
It's amazing how quick a week can go from really bad to really cool - 2004-05-15-0000
I'm Pathetic - 2004-05-05-1035
As we near the end (again) - 2003-11-01-0000

It's right about now...

Posted 2005-07-13-2135

It's right about now that I start hating myself. I just can't trust myself. I'm useless. Just letting the wrong thing slip and then being honest about it. I have to be honest about it, what would I be then?

Most days aren't this bad, and really great things have and are happening. Maybe some of the latent stress is getting to me. Too many things to do, not enough time, can't focus on anything, generally feeling stupid...

Just can't focus. Don't know if it's just there is so much to do (some that I don't want to do).