What is this page?
This is a page to show just how f***ed up I am. It outlines some of the ideas that guide my life. It will never be complete.
Theory
I'll cross that bridge when I get to it
The future is that: the future. It's not very common that I make a decission about some well ahead of time. Currently I think I'm working about 24 hours in advanced, some days that is down to hours. I guess it makes my life look more like a series of luckly [really?] coincidences than running by any plan.
Right Idea, Wrong Reasons
I feel this happening to me increasingly often. It scares me greatly. I am [was?] quite preseptive and sometimes pick up on things that I get the "wrong end of the stick". Example: I think I should give someone space, because I might have been a bit too demanding on their time. Next day I'm told to stay away, they have been really depressed and I'm (in part) causing it.
Ladys first
I think that common courtesy isn't common enough these days. Just a warning though... you get just one chance. If you don't take it, I'll be through the door and gone before you blink. I'm more than happy for someone to show be some courtesy as well. Equal rights is a two way street.
Eyes open when entering the unknown
I will never do anything without knowing with at least some certainty the outcome. And even then I might not do it. I am extremely careful about what I do, and (most of the time) say.
Three times for the truth rule
This is typical:
"How are you?"
"Fine thank you, and you?"
This is of course is a blanket statement. I'm fine because I am still breathing. If you really want to know the truth, you have to ask a few times, (or ask me at a bad time, when you will get a truthful but sarcastic-sounding response). I've noticed this theory can be applied to most people.
Only decline a gift once rule
If someone insists on giving me something after I've helped them with something, and it's not too much trouble to take it, I will only decline it once. If someone offers me money for fixing a computer I will take it after I have declined it once and they still insist on giving it to me. It seems to work well. This rule does not always apply.
Music knows [almost] everything
I love listening to music, in particular when there is a story in the lryics. There is a little bit of everything in music. You start to realise that you are not the first one in that situation. It's also good when it's played loud, allowing you to stop thinking for a bit and just let the music flow through you and clear the mind.
For everything else, use google
Then you realise that you are truely not alone. Somewhere out there, someone else is going through something scarily similar...
Tradition should be respected, but broken when it suits
While the past is important, it is just as important to keep with the times, and circumstance. Rules can be broken, (physical) laws can be proved untrue. People change (but you can't change them, they have to change themself. Of course it helps to point out what should change...)
I'm quiet, and I know it
I know I'm quiet. It takes me great effort to even speak up in most situations. I'm shy, don't take my initial silence as a sign I'm not interested.
Make you intention clear
While I am fairly good at detecting subtlety [until recently] I definity like the confidence from knowing what you want, or what direction you are going in. Don't expect me to guess from little subtle hints, I might only "get it" sometimes.
An object at rest will remain at rest unless a force acts upon it
In other words, I won't do anything unless I have a very good reason - like an invitation, for example. This is sort-of like "Make you intention clear" and could explain why I often feel lonely and left out.